|10/20/2014 5:37:25 PM -
Currently undergoing Chemotherapy to treat systemic Ulcerative Colitis as a last measure.
So I have been training, just not posting much. Other than the times that I'm in the gym or working...I try not to even think about training at all. A large part of me is filled with something that isn't jealousy or hate, yet it is. I don't want to hear about someone's big squat PR or their clean and jerk records. All I can see is something that I'm not even able to attempt right now and, maybe it is jealousy.
I am learning FAST that I can get to the gym on any given day and put together ONE decent set, and then I am done. The explosion isn't there and I'd prefer to just duck tape a large pillow to my head so I can lean against the wall and sleep than train. My mind says "you can do this" but my body says "no, you cannot". It has been the first time in my life where my body has had the power over my mind.
I don't have any major goals right now, except to just lift. Maybe that is what I'm doing, achieving my goals of "just lifting". Nothing else but JUST LIFTING.
Video: You know me, I don't go anywhere without something to shoot video and to take photos with. We trained last Wednesday, Friday, Sunday and today Monday. I have not been able to sit down at my laptop and edit video, most of my free time I spend laying on the couch with my phone in my hand in between naps. And by "naps"...I sooooooo wish I was talking about the naps that come in different neat shapes...but...
With the video and me not editing it, it has played into the advantage of my training partners. Weightlifting Nationals is this weekend and NOBODY is talking about their projected numbers. Since my training partners are competing, they said they had no problems not sharing their training for the last week till after the contest is over :)
Chances are pretty good that I will get some video up and password protected here in the next few days though ;)
I have not done anything noteworthy in the gym in a long LONG LONGER time except get TO the gym. Maybe that is me achieving.
More on the way...